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Pictured: me after failing at making chicken… again. — When you’re working through things, when you’re putting yourself first and working on things you should have been working on, truly, for years – it’s hard. It’s really fucking hard. But, if you’re putting in the work, even if it sucks sometimes – you’ll also realizeContinue reading “Rainbows and Butterflies”

When big life choices come up as you are working on lots of other things in your life… Finding your answers can be tough. Your big answers — the ones that resolve your big questions. It can be tough because of exactly that. These are big questions — big answers. And while you try toContinue reading “Your Answers”

I haven’t written in awhile. I guess because I’ve been doing shit. When I don’t write, sometimes it’s good and sometimes it’s bad. Sometimes it doesn’t mean anything and sometimes it means everything. And tonight I have no idea what I’m going to write about, but I have officially lived in Boston for a year,Continue reading “One Year What Up”

When I knew it was time to get real… — Let’s get fucking real. Yes, that was aggressive. Because yes, sometimes it has to be. I’ve spent a long time dealing with shit. Pure shit. So much shit that I wish I had another word for it other than shit, but that’s all it is.Continue reading “Let’s Get Real”

When I failed in my recovery… — I was scared. I was so scared. Scared that it wouldn’t fix me. Scared that I was unfixable. Scared that I would fall. I did it anyway. I recently took a big step. A step toward facing my problems, healing my heart and soul — changing my deeplyContinue reading “Afraid to Fall”

The reason I’m pushing through recovery…   —   I opened my notebook. The first page was an attempted journal session in which I was going to try to realize my life’s purpose. The second, an eight week diet plan. The third, a detailed meal plan outlining the only meals I presumably was allowed toContinue reading “The Reason”

The past few months, I lost a piece of myself. Not in a huge way. Not in a life-stopping way. Not in a “I’m a shell of a human way.” In a way I thought was actually positive. In a way that, in some ways, was. Before moving to Boston I was a dreamer. IContinue reading “Dream”

How to deal with the people in your life during recovery… — You didn’t ask, because why would you? Why would you know something is going on? That something is OK to talk about? You didn’t ask, because why would you? How would you know? Why would I expect you to? I don’t. One ofContinue reading “How to deal with the people”

We hold a fear in our mind and our hearts – and we hold it very dear. It sits within us, every once and awhile mustering up the courage to come out, every once and awhile causing us paralysis – an inability to just, simply, move. We fear that we will look back one dayContinue reading “The Ultimate Balance”

The last nine months I participated in a leadership program through The Chamber of Commerce in Reno and Sparks, Nevada. We spent the time doing many things, the most important being helping an important cause. We worked to raise money, awareness, and more for Awaken, a local non-profit with the goal of ending human trafficking.Continue reading “The Solution”