I try to reflect on all of my experiences, write about them and move on from there.
What did it mean? How will it help me in the future? What should I do next?
I enjoy this practice, and I think it is important. It is important to me, my growth, and my life.
But when does it become too much? When do I realize that not every little thing needs to be analyzed, not everything needs to be worried about and agonized over? When do I see that not every mistake is a life-changer, and that sometimes, mistakes just happen?
Now, I guess.
Sometimes I get too caught up.
Too caught up in being perfect, doing the right things and satisfying my obligations. I get too caught up in making certain I am where I need to be in the eyes of others, that I am exactly where I need to be in relation to the competition.
Just too caught up.
Too caught up to enjoy the little things, instead of analyzing them. Too caught up to be happy with small successes, rather than immediately jumping back into the next goal.
I’ll always reflect, I’ll always write. I’ll always believe that each experience we have means something and that there is always something to learn. I’ll always strive for excellence.
What I won’t do, is constantly wonder.
If I’m doing it right, if I made the right decision, or if I’m going the right direction. Because, everything is right— everything happens for a reason. And no matter how much you plan it out, it might not ever be exactly how you pictured it.
Someone said something to me the other day in regards to my future that will stay with me forever—
“The good thing is, you can’t do anything wrong.”
So quit trying to do it all perfect, because that, is a waste of time.