Balance

I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately (weird).

I’ve been thinking about what exactly I want to do, I’ve been thinking about what new goals I need to set, I’ve been thinking about what I need to do to achieve my dreams.

I need to save money for new furniture and outfitting for a new place. I need to save money for a camera for when I do travel. I need to save money for a trip just after graduation. I need to save money to move at some point. I need to save money for business investments. I need to save money for a cushion.

I need to save money to live.

I’m fascinated by this idea of balance.

This idea that we need to balance living each day like it’s our last and living each day in pursuit of a better tomorrow.

It’s overwhelming.

How am I supposed to save money for future projects and goals when I am trying to live my life to the fullest in my current situation? How am I supposed to maintain a healthy lifestyle whilst being content with myself and living each day like it’s my last?

It’s hard.

I’m often critical of myself for being unable to reach this seemingly unattainable balance. It is to me like a pigment of my imagination that only sometimes comes to life.

What I think we need to realize, is that this strive for balance in our daily lives— the balance between work and play, it’s what life is all about, and I don’t know if we’ll ever have it truly figured out.

We’re told to do what we want. We’re told that the time is now. We’re told to drop everything and live out our passions. And while I agree, I also think we need to remember that in order to do those things, small steps must come first.

And it is in those small steps that we live.

Because, living each day in honor of our truest desires— whether that’s a new car or an A on a test, that will allow us to live each day to our truest potential, and in turn, allow us to live each day as though it’s our last best day.

And you know what, there’s a possibility that the journey is all we’ll ever have. That some of the dreams we dream of will drift away.

We need to remember that that’s okay. That if the journey is all we ever get, that if we promise to be our best selves and to remember to live it up in the meantime— that that is enough. That these small steps toward excellence, they will eventually be one big step, and they will be your life— whether it’s short, long, fabulous, or simple, it won’t matter, because it will be yours, and you will have done your best.