Yesterday I laughed so hard that I cried, something I used to do almost daily. As the tears started forming in my eyes and eventually streaming down my face, I felt a sense of nostalgia come over me.
I like to think of myself as a laid back person.
I enjoy laughing, smiling and trying to brush things off as best I can. Laughing so hard that my stomach hurts and tears are coming out of my eyes used to be a regular event.
Except that I had forgotten.
I had forgotten what it felt like to laugh that hard with friends. I had forgotten what it felt like to be so present in a moment that tears run down your face because of something that ridiculous. I had forgotten what it felt like to feel something so great.
I couldn’t believe it.
After, I felt more alone than anything (listening to country music on the way home probably just elevated the issue, but I was being dramatic so oh well). Where were the people that I used to have so much fun with? Together, that’s where they are.
Maybe that’s when you realize you’re a little too busy. Maybe that’s when you see that you are starting to miss out on priceless parts of life.
Maybe that’s all true, and maybe I need to figure out why.
When’s the last time you laughed until you cried? Cried until you laughed? When’s the last time you had so much fun you wanted to relive it over and over? If it’s been a while, figure out why. Don’t waste too much time caught up in your self-inflicted to-do list.
Balance, enough said.