Some people think I’m rather emotionless. This is most likely due to the fact that I have an average crying rate of 1 tear-up or solid cry per year (four since I moved to Reno in 2010- close enough), I’m decently laid back and I generally don’t argue or fight with anyone.
Lately though I have been getting worked up every now and again. Generally, after the initial reaction declines, I end up disappointed in myself for feeling that way, wanting to be better and to be able to see the bigger picture in all moments. I am disappointed simply in my own emotions and feelings.
It’s important to remember that with the incredible and surreal feelings of true happiness and excitement about life, comes at times, more difficult emotions.
And that’s okay.
Emotions are weird.
We get sad, we get mad, we get happy, we get excited and we get aggravated.
Sometimes we can control our emotions and sometimes we can’t.
Sometimes we know that we shouldn’t feel a certain way, whether it’s jealous, irritated or anything else, but we still do.
It’s frustrating not being able to control something that can sometimes so greatly control you. How many times I’ve said, “I know I shouldn’t feel like this, but yeah” is well, a lot.
But that’s okay.
It’s okay that sometimes experiences in your life have you so worked up and passionate, that you feel irritated. It’s okay that when someone you love does something you don’t agree with, you get upset.
This is what makes us human and reminds us that we are alive and have true connections.
Emotions, no matter good or bad, should remind us of how lucky we are to have experiences that bring out the emotion. If we didn’t feel anything at all, we wouldn’t care about anything at all, we wouldn’t be passionate about anything at all.
Act, don’t react. Be rational and logical but accept that emotions are okay and that they will come. Handle them and act on them in a calm and positive way, sure, but don’t ignore them or look down on yourself for having them (okay fine, I’ll try).
Emotions are inevitable, and they should be, so accept them. They shouldn’t consume you, but they should be noticed, dealt with and given the thought they deserve.
There’s a reason you feel a certain way, what is it? That answer can help you get to the root of internal issues as well as help you to figure out what you truly want in life.
What gets your passion going? What makes you feel something? What do you care about?
Because isn’t that what it’s all about?